After a few years of this blog being inactive, I write again with bad news.
December 2, I received a message from a friend of a friend. I thought that it was strange since I know that she no longer mentions me as much to other people any more and that was my real account which no one on this side really knows. Anyway, I thought that it was another of her stalkers curious about me because she mentioned me somehow... it wasn't. And now I wish that was all it was.
He told me that our friend had died in a car accident on November 30. I was so hoping it was just the worst kind of stalker ever. But it wasn't.
I've known her for 10 years... 10 wonderfully weird years.
I planned on going to work there to be closer to her, but a recession hit there and I got fired from my work here. It would have been ideal, but with the recession, I had to stay here.
I never did get to leave the country, even to visit her, but I did get a passport with that in mind. My passport has long expired and now I see no point in renewing it.
She's dead. She's gone. I won't be having inane conversations with her about who loves whom most, her asking for chus and I give her smerps, and about bishies being groped.
We have drifted apart lately. She had her life, I had(?) mine. She was always so busy going to cons, partying with friends and working. I knew she didn't really need me any more, not like she did then. She has really grown into a wonderful adult and I was happy that she finally had better friends in her country than before, but also sad that she wasn't "mine" any more. She had places to go, people to be with, and hearts to break.
I was satisfied seeing that she was away on skype, it susually meant that she was busy RPing with someone. But now when I see her status, all it does is make me cry because I can no longer surprise her with a chu or a smerp or just a simple hi and then have one of our weird conversations.
Here I was planning on finally sending a manga or two again with some hot chocolate and mango juice, just like I used to, for her birthday. But now... blerg.
Goodbye Enchanter. Goodbye Rebecca. I love you, always have, always will. ~your Inoue
